Ok I need A Girlfriend (Advice)?

Ok well i have dated quite some girls in my time and considered a man whore but...honestly im not i just want love like i did like eith this girl i dated a year ago we were so perfect cute and funny together, my friends say it was funny because she would have to tiptoe to kiss me or i have to bend down to kiss her...well enough about her i honestly lost my game with girls (not trying to be a sexist) i mean like i broke down and shut down completely when we broke up and i have been more anti social than ever i just want a real relationship i want a girl that can show her love for me and i can protect her throughout what happens and just hold hands and walk to happiness...I know nothing like that is possible but i mean i want a girl who is not a cheater or a liar or a fake and like i dont know i guess if your interested email me i guess @ soul.reaper@att.net (yea cheesy email i know i didnt make thee name also ill give you my number and a pic to) Well its not that im desperate im just tired of being involved with trouble, drugs, alcohol, depression etc. Also well ima go by everyones description by myself Im a 14 year old emo fag who loves to scream and listen to music a skating addict and just really sad alot with very low self esteem- so yea guys another question how can i choose the right girl i would love to be with like here in Los Angeles California there is alot of fakes and hoes (not even a hyperbole) So yea thanks for reading this even peeking would do some good for me i guess so...yea bye